A while back I wrote an article called Immanence, the point of the article was to stress that the Goddess and the powers that be are always present and accounted for within our own lives and that everything that we want, need and desire is also present!
I cannot stress the importance of learning to own and to accept
responsibility for the role that you play in creating your own-life, you
are responsible for every second and for every thought that you have
previously had that has led up to this very place in time, to this very
moment!
True change comes from within, we have the power to feed, clothe and
shelter ourselves, we have power over our physical presence in this life,
mind over matter, thought can bend and shape the physical into whatever our
minds can conjure. Unfortunately as living, breathing, sentient-beings we
have a knack of focusing our mental strength on the negatives in our lives
making them stronger than they should be, giving them power to destroy all
of the positive that we possess in our lives and then we question why? Why
doesn't he love me? What have I done to deserve this? Why are all of these
people against me? Now, magical attack is real and as a Witch I have seen
the devastating results that a psychic or magical attack can bring and on
the flip-side of the coin I have seen what ones own negative thoughts can
do to destroy their life!
Power, is a needle-point within our own being, it is that small infinite
part of ourselves that magic is weaved from, this is where true change
begins to take place, most of us are always too busy looking for the cause
of our problems to stop and realize that our own thoughts are the root
cause, our feelings about how we feel about our self is dictating what
today will be and what tomorrow will bring, we are the root cause and
effect of our own existence.
There are so many examples that I could use, my clientele is largely made
up of people who have lost their way, they have lost the love of their life
and instead of working in a positive manner to bring the change needed to
reunite with the one that they love, they are often too busy gossiping to
friends and family and pointing fingers and laying blame at the stoop of
someone other than themselves, when what they should be doing is stopping
all of the insanity and learn the art of silence, "Speak not,
lest your spell be broken and the one you've chosen seeks to find
another"
If the point of power is always present within each of our minds, that
means our thoughts and our actions are more important than we ever realized
them to be, everything that materializes into the physical plane was first
given birth to on the mental plane in the form of thought, every time that
you get mad and react negatively to what you perceive as a wrong done to
you by someone else, is actually a wrong that you are doing to
yourself!
Every time you feel the need to spy on the one that you love it is because
you are not trusting yourself and your own magical force to create the
outcome that you desire, you in fact are stacking the deck against
yourself, you are setting yourself up for your own downfall!
If you are working magic to resurrect the love between you and your lover,
the love and the behavior that you desire from your lover should be your
focus and not what he or she may or may not be doing or who they are doing
it with, you need to see the relationship as a pile of raw-clay, you need
to mold that clay into the love that you seek from your lover, you do not
need to waste valuable mental resources on the negative aspects of the old
love affair you once had, do not worry about yesterday, right now and
tomorrow are what counts, you instead need to have a desire to bring that
love back better than before, better than yesterday and you need to focus
on molding yourself and your lover into the perfect cup, a cup that is
filled with love, with joy, filled with peace and harmony, filled with
pleasure and prosperity, the more you focus on the strife in your life, the
more power you grant that strife, once you realize that you have the power
within you can change any outward manifestation that you dislike and you
will begin to see positive change and results from your own magical life
and yes your life is magical, it became magical the moment that you entered
into this realm and that wasn't when your mother physically gave birth to
you, it was when you conceived the notion that it was time for your spirit
to be reborn into the physical, into the earth-plane, your birth mother was
the vessel that carried your physical body that now houses your soul, your
physical body is made up of a series of vibrations, of thought!
You are undermining your own life path by what you choose to believe,
think, act and the words you choose to use, your mind is your own, you are
in control over your thoughts, I do not think for you, your lover doesn't
think for you, you are the sole owner over your mental domain, sure if you
are weak minded, mentally unwell and imbalanced, thoughts and notions are
more easily planted as seeds into your mind, but, ultimately it is your
choice as to whether you choose to project those thoughts, it is your
choice to allow the poisonous roots of negative thoughts to use your mind
as fertile soil in which to grow and multiply from! So, if you desire
greater change in your life, if you desire to bring back a lost love,
improve your finances, get a handle on your personal health, be it
mentally, emotionally or physically, you must learn to control the thoughts
that you have in this very moment and stop making excuses for yourself and
for your own bad behavior, for each time that you act out negatively it is
yourself that you hurt and no one else, it is your happiness that you delay
and your body that you decay!
"Thoughts are alive" and pulsating with power,
thought is an inward process that manifests outwardly into the world, but,
one may internalize their thoughts to such a point that they create disease
within their own bodies, there are hundreds of books written about energy
and how it impacts our body, you can find them in the self-help or new age
section of just about any bookstore or on amazon.com. This is a good spot
in which I can use my own life experience as an example, when I was about
15 years old, my grandfather was diagnosed with colon cancer, we found out
because he had taken ill with a fever and was in the bed and refused to
allow any of us to call an ambulance or take him to the hospital, my mother
who worked as a private nurse hadn't been home in almost a week, on her day
off she arrived at the house walked into his room and without a word walked
back to the house phone, yes, this was back in the day when everyone
actually used a phone with a cord attached to it, she picked up the phone
and called 911 and it wasn't long before the ambulance arrived and off to
the hospital we all went, he went as he held great respect and love for my
mother, who was a stubborn matriarch of the family that came with her own
set of special baggage that she wore upon her brow like a badge of
honor!
My grandfather was more of a pagan-man than anything, he didn't believe in
heaven or hell, he believed that life was here and now and what we made it
out to be, by far he was one the strongest male role models in my life and
still today when I find myself in certain situations I often ask myself,
what would he do? And I am never surprised when I hear his voice answering
me! My grandfather (Pawpaw) was a big bear of a man, he raised children
that he didn't father as his own, as did my grandmother and while I never
really felt the love of my grandmother, I always knew in my heart that she
loved each and everyone of us, she as my grandfather and mother have moved
on, I know at least two of them are now higher-points of light, I wish I
could say that about all three of them, but I have learned to trust my
intuition.
Anyway, back to the hospital, the doctors ran test after test, nurses were
in and out of his room and lab technicians withdrawing blood, all the while
my grandfather joked and laughed with each and everyone of them, never
letting on that his pain was great or that the situation was as grave as it
was, growing up with him he was an old dirt farmer, he dug in the dirt and
planted seeds for tomatoes, peppers, he grew watermelon, housed chicken and
rabbits and even after moving to the city from the country continued to
tend a garden year after year and he would often explain to us kids how the
cycle of life would rise and fall and all that came from the earth would
return unto it and he also told me that when his time came he wanted to be
cremated and when his time finally came the Christian Warriors in my family
went to great lengths to dishonor his wishes and my grandmother had him
buried in a coffin, I told her, I told them all that he would haunt them
and for a while he did, needless to say that I wasn't welcomed in many of
their homes after his funeral and there was no love lost because they were
not welcomed in mine either!
After all the test and blood work we were all asked to gather in his room,
my grandfather had suffered a stroke at a young age that impacted the
right-side of his body, including his hearing, he could walk, but he lifted
his right leg barely bending his knee to do so. I remember when the Doctor
came into the room, he looked around at about a dozen or so faces, some
smiling, some simply blank anticipating the news that we all were about to
receive. As the Doctor spoke we learned that my Grandfather's appendix had
burst and fused together and would require immediate surgery to remove, we
also learned that he had stage-4 colon cancer. My mother spoke first and I
could hear the fear in her voice, she asked the Doctor how long my Pawpaw
had and he said with the surgery 6 months at best, without the surgery it
was a matter of weeks, the room fell silent for a moment and then erupted
with everyone speaking all at once, all the while my Grandfather laid there
in silence, once the chatter died down he told the Doctor that he wanted
the surgery and the Doctor said that he would be prepped and taken down at
once because of his appendix and while they were in there that they would
remove the colon cancer, which would result in his wearing a colostomy-bag,
my Grandfather silently shook his head and the next thing we all knew he
was being wheeled out of the room and off to surgery.
Surgery seemed like it took days, during the surgery a Group of Witches was
raising and building energy doing a healing circle for my grandpa, I was
sitting in his room the moment that the cone of power was raised and
directed towards him, the blinds on the windows shook violently and the
privacy curtain around the bed raised towards the ceiling and dropped and
the windows rattled, if I had been anywhere other than Atlanta I would have
sworn we were having an earthquake, but I knew what it was, one of my Aunts
walked into his room and the first thing she said it is freezing in here!
Surgery went well, the doctor informed us that my grandfather was in
recovery and would be back in his room before long and that it would be a
good idea to have someone from the family with him at all times and as soon
as he was settled and awake he'd be back in to talk to my grandpa and all
the family, soon thereafter they wheeled him back into the room and lifted
him onto his bed, and just as promised his doctor appeared not long
thereafter.
The doctor comes in the room and touches my grandpa's shoulder and asked
how are you feeling? He jokingly said fine, I would be better if they'd
quit sticking a bloody kotex in my mouth, the room erupted in laughter and
the doctor told him for now that is just to keep your mouth moist and from
drying out, soon you can have some ice-chips. The doctor then asked if the
younger kids could be taken out of the room and the older ones could stay
if they wanted to, my grandfather said no, this is my family and we deal
with things as a family. You may recall I mentioned that he had a stroke
when he was younger, the stroke damaged his right eardrum and at times if
you were standing on his right side you'd have to practically yell at him
so he could hear you, the doctor asked him if he smoked, he said yes and I
chew tobacco, the doctor then said I would like you to cutback on your
usage, and my grandfather responded with you want me to quit smoking and
chewing tobacco consider it done, the doctor looked perplexed, my
grandmother explained about his hearing and the doctor then said yes,
please quit! My grandfather never smoked or chewed tobacco again, but he
also told the doctor you gave me six months to live, I will live until I am
ready to die, the doctor said he liked his positive attitude and he did
just that he lived another eight years, he crossed the bridge into the
summerland just before my 23rd birthday, I learned a lot from him that day
in the hospital and I learned a great deal more over the eight years that
followed and til this day I still draw on the magic that I witnessed in
that hospital room during his surgery and afterwards.
My Grandfather left the earth-plane almost 27 years ago, the impact that
his presence and teachings had on my life have been profound, our teachers
and spiritual leaders come to us in many disguises, but spiritually
speaking none of them are as great as the point of power that we each
possess, magic, true magic comes from within, I can cast a spell for you or
work a ritual, but, you must decide to allow the magic to work and not
restrict it by bounding it with your own negative thoughts and emotions. We
are here to grow and to learn, we are given gifts that we are meant to use,
magic is older than any religion, when you call out to or upon a God and
your request is granted you have worked magic, while I strive to keep my
magic and spiritual worship separately, spirituality is magical unto
itself.
My Grandfather lived another 8 years after being told he'd be dead in 6
months, why? He lived because he projected the will to live, he lived
because he believed that he would, it is true that he had help from the
Witches that worked his healing circle, but, most of all he knew how to tap
the power-point-of-energy that he contained within, we all contain this
energy within, yet so few of us employ its full benefits, as if being a
benefactor of magic is somehow wrong, in my opinion not using it is wrong,
for the use of magic is a lesson and it is a lesson that we as magical
beings must accept, for without acceptance we lose the strength of one of
our greatest allies, ourselves!
Life is what we make it out to be, the world can be a frightening place,
especially when we are taught from a young age that people are bad and not
to trust strangers and I will admit that if I had kids of my own I would
most certainly dissuade interaction with strangers, but I would also teach
them that the world and the people in it are inherently good and that love,
peace and joy exist in all of us and I would teach them as I was taught
that kindness doesn't come in the form of color, magic is within all of us,
we simply must learn how to tap into that magic and to use it for our own
highest-good and for the higher-good of others and casting a spell or
conducting a ritual and then constantly questioning its validity is not for
ones highest-good, for to cast a spell with doubt only begets the same and
if you cannot put your best foot forward when working with magic, it is
better that you stand still and do nothing, for nothing but mayhem will
befall you!
I have several clients right now who are working against themselves by
constantly questioning their magic and by engaging in self-destructive
behavior, getting angry and upset because you feel slighted is human,
lashing out, seeking revenge and using hurtful language is foolish, for you
are only hurting yourself and you are only degrading the magic that you
have employed to work on your behalf, when you set magical goals for
yourself you need a certain level of commitment, it is okay to be human, it
is okay to get your feelings hurt, but one must always keep in mind that
they have magical goals that they are trying to achieve and you cannot work
against those goals and then complain that your magic isn't working, the
next time you start to complain stop what you are doing and go take a long
look into the mirror, for it all begins with and ends with you!
I hope this article finds you well and in the company of good spirits and I
hope as you move forward in this life that you find the will to stay
positively focused and magically motivated!
Blessed be, Phelan